Candlelight: A poem in two crappy little parts.

Firelight
Warbling and shaking
More like waterlight, really.
A newborn baby
That
Even when it's grown and grown
Until it's bigger than life itself
It's still shaking
And flighty
And worried.


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A shadow on a wall
Dances like a toddler
Playful and clumsy and right
The candle falls
(or is pushed)
and accidentally starts a blaze
to rival the one
in my soul
at midnight.
It grows older in moments
or less
Until the wall it danced upon
is gone.
And as we fight the long crusade
to kill the blaze,
to win the war,
I can't help
but pity
the little candle.

Vague

And soon enough
I'll get to make
The lines of me, more vague.
And my personality
shape
show size
hair color
will be up for interpretation.
I'll be anything you want me to be.
My skills will be less threatening
My faults will be less blinding
If you're lucky
You couldn't pick me
Out of a crowd.

Truths Galore!

001. Real name → Abigail Jean Winbigler.
002. Nickname(s) → Abi? Obi? Abs? Absie?
003. Status → Single and ready to mingle. :D
004. Zodiac sign → Gemini.
005. Male or female → Female.
006. Elementary → Uhm, Warren/United.
007. Middle Schools → Uhm, Alexis/United.
008. High School → Uhm, Macomb/United.
009. Skin Color→ Paaaaale.
010. Hair color → Bloooonde.
011. Long or short → Loooong?
012. Loud or Quiet → Loud. Period.
013. Sweats or Jeans → Jeans, I've never owned sweats.
014. Phone or Camera → Phone, I have friends with cameras. :D
015. Health freak → Nahhh.
017. Do you have a crush on someone? Mmmmhm.
018. Eat or Drink → Drink.
019. Piercings → Heeeeell yeah. Wait, do I have any? No.
021. Water or Fire - Fire.
022. Love of your life or 4 Billion Dollars → A love I can handle and two billion dollars. Then I'd divorce him and travel the world to find the love of my life.

FIRSTS:
023. First fear → Clowns, I think.
024. First best friend → Have I had one yet?
025. First award → Horse show.
026. First crush → I think it was Greyson, though that may have been a dream. A kindergarten dream.
027. First pet - Mao.
028. First big vacation → Disney World?
030. First big birthday → 8? It was puppy themed. :D

CURRENTLY:
049. Eating → Air.
050. Drinking → Jones Cola.
052. I'm about to → Who knows.
053. Listening to → Folding Chair, by Regina Spektor.
054. Plans for today → It's nighttime, IDIOT.
055. Waiting for → Next weekend, Christmas, and my mom coming back.

YOUR FUTURE:
058. Want kids?→ Mmhm.
059. Want to get married? Mmhm.
060. What careers do you have in mind? Editor.

WHICH IS BETTER WITH SIGNIFICANT OTHER
068. Lips or eyes - Lips.
070. Shorter or taller? → Taller please.
072. Romantic or spontaneous → I think spontaneity *is* romantic.
073. Chest or Butt?→ BOTH. xD
074. Sensitive or loud → Sensitive.
075. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship.
077. Trouble maker or hesitant → Neither.

HAVE YOU EVER:
080. Lost glasses/contacts→ Mmhm.
081. Ran away from home → No.
083. Killed somebody → YES. xD
084. Been Heartbroken → Yeah.
085. Been arrested → No.
087. Cried when someone died → Yes.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself → Occasionally.
090. Miracles → Sometimes.
091. Love at first sight → No.
092. Heaven → Yes.
093. Santa Claus → No.
094. Tooth Fairy → No.
095. Friendships → Yes.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now more than others → Yes.
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → No.
099. Do you believe in God → Yes.
100. The End.

Friends.

Yeah, I'm damn glad I have them.

DAMN GLAD.

They're so flippin' versatile!

I mean.... They can be pillows and lovers and laughers and confidants and just....
Damn.

I love them and I'd say more, but I'm going to spend some more time with my friends.

Love,
ABi!

Ah yes.

Ah, and yes
When I was a child
I'd sit in the bath and play
And then I'd get tired
And I'd fall asleep
And I'd try and float away.


I miss being a little kid, a lot. Things were so goddamned simple.
Well, not really. But you know what I mean. At least then, people tried to protect me.
Well, not really. But... At least then, I was busy playing.

What?!

"Demi Lovato is too beautiful, talented and young to be dealing this sort of emotional baggage."

I read this in an article that I shouldn't have read. I mean, who am I to care about Demi Lovato? But.... damn. She's too beautiful?! Because of course, beautiful people should never have to deal with emotional baggage or hardships or things that LESS ATTRACTIVE people have to deal with. She's too talented?! I know people with twice her talent and double her baggage. She's too young?! She's 18. There are 9 year olds who have it worse.

I wish we didn't have famous people.

And then she kissed his nose
and he asked her, "Why on earth?"
And she giggled with her eyes
And shrugged.


Goodness gracious kids, I don't know why I'm going to do. Whenever I try to write poetryl, I get a sentence that pauses at odd times. And whenever I'm trying not to think of something, it hypothetically kicks me in the brain with its intensity. And whenever I try to make a lovely something, it turns into a simple sandwich.

Maybe I'll always be just a little below what I want to be.

Yellow yellow yellow in my eyes eyes eyes....

Yellow is always the first word that comes to my head.

Probably because of my obscenely sunny personality.

That's what I'm aiming for.

Odd...

I want to get a migraine, and have it try to split my skull.

I want it to hurt so bad, I cry.

I want to lie on the top bunk and lay a cold rag on my head,

not have any lights on,

not hear anything,

and fall into the oblivion

that is sleep

in the midst

of a migraine.