I'm getting really good at this posting thing. Maybe I'll be all writey-ditey in my boredom.
I've been really depressed lately over the 'thing that shall not be named' and it must be worse than I thought, because my dad has noticed. He doesn't quite know how to fix things, so he's been taking me driving.
IT'S SCARY.
But I love it anyway. We did it yesterday and the night before... both times rather late at night. Yesterday, it was my first time driving/I was in a huge truck/it was craaaazy foggy, so needless to say I was horrified. Tonight was a little more fun, I was driving the Olds and so it was better in a way... though I almost died. This ridiculous truck came over the hill and scared me. :3
But everyone is okay. I saw a mini car show today and it was beeeautiful. It all started with this '57 Cadillac with fins and a cherry red/spotless paint job and full red interior. Made me drool, just a little. I also hadn't eaten all day, so that was nice. :P And there was this purple thingie and a 30s era Plymouth... But enough about that.
Before all this car centric excitement, I saw my grandpa in the hospital. It was... deeply depressing. He's not the man I knew. He used to be so smart, if a little slow in his old age. And when it got a little worse, we put him into a nursing home. He was sweet as pie for a while... but then he started getting violent. Who knows why, but they got scared and sent him to another nursing home. Same thing, except this time they sent him to the psych ward of a nearby hospital. And that's where I saw him today, wearing a diaper and a hospital gown. He was just trying to get this stupid string off, but he wanted a knife. It was one of the saddest moments of my life, and thanks to the 'thing that shall not be named' I really had no one I could openly get the comfort I needed from. Eh.... I like these long posts.
Maybe if I had some foooollowers.....
Currently listening to:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o22eIJDtKho
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dWlLPJG9Cvg
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dORTJqbD4HM
Goodbye.
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